From brokenness to living a deeper life

Insight from Thriving Women.

“Five years ago, I contracted a very rare disease called Guillain-Barre syndrome while 18 weeks pregnant. It left me physically paralyzed for several months. It was a dark scary place and has been some of the toughest years of my life and I will always be in recovery. Every single day is a struggle to function, but through that journey I found painting. I can’t imagine where I’d be without this experience.”

Meet Amber Zakahi—her story is powerful. Her struggle, pain and bravery will speak to you, as will her determination, joy and resilient spirit! Enjoy reading her story and connecting with her on social media. You will be inspired by her insight!

• • •

Amber Zakahi (AZ):
I got married to the love of my life in 2011 and found out two months later that we needed to try to have children right away because I needed to have a partial hysterectomy. Due to my Endometriosis, the doctors couldn’t define if I needed a partial or full until the surgery process and although chances to become pregnant were low for me, we decided to try—and I became pregnant.

family children

Right around 16 weeks I started coming down with a really high fever, soreness in my body and was hospitalized. The medical staff ended up diagnosing me with a mild case of Meningitis and sent me home after having some rounds of medication.

A few weeks went by and it became hard to function. I was not able to walk on my own without assistance and my health began to go downhill from there. I continued to go back to doctors and no one could give us answers. (I was even told that I had hypochondria related to my first pregnancy).

One morning I tried getting out of bed and collapsed to the ground—I lost complete control of my body. We ended up back at the hospital for more testing and I was hospitalized, because I started having difficulty breathing. The doctors couldn’t understand my situation, because my airways were clear, but at that time we also didn’t understand that it was Guillain-Barré syndrome.

Within 72 hours, this disease shuts your body down and leaves you completely paralyzed.

Your body essentially attacks your muscles and your nerves, which can include losing function of your lungs. Some people who endure this have to go on life-support.

At that point, I was still not diagnosed and we began to feel abandoned by the healthcare world. I was in excruciating pain and I remember feeling as though I wanted to die. I didn’t know if I was going to be paralyzed forever. I thought, ‘Was I going to be able to ever function again? Was I ever going to be able to hold my baby?’

(Amber and I begin to cry as she continued to share her story with me).

I recall being sent back home and having various people from our church over, to simply help me function—clean, prepare meals, use the bathroom, etc. It was a very humbling time for me. I felt embarrassed because I had to completely be vulnerable and allow everyone do everything for me. I lived this way for several months.

your choice

I’ll never forget the day that I told myself, ‘I choose not to remain this way. I need to begin to walk again!’

And so I requested a walker from my husband and every day for two weeks, I would stand up on that walker and give everything I could to be able to function again. And slowly, over the next couple of months I began to get better.

During this time, I began researching online and discovered Guillain-Barré syndrome. I shared the information with a neurologist and after his research, he was able to confirm my diagnosis. Research showed that some people ended up living somewhat normal lives with this disease and others didn’t. I had no idea what my future was going to look like.

Be You and Thrive (BY&T):
I can’t imagine the emotional roller-coaster that you endured, Amber. The power of choice and the will inside you to not be limited by your health, is so inspiring. Can you share more insight in regards to moving beyond our individual difficulties and pushing forward?

First, it starts with your mind. You are making a choice to say, ‘Yes!’ or you are making the choice to allow whatever ailment or whatever it is that’s holding you back, to take control of you.

you can do anything

In reality, you are the one who is in control and who sets your own limits.

Anything that you want to do, you can do. But you have to get your mind there—whether you believe that you can do it or if you have to blindly trust that you can.

Secondly, having faith was also a big part of my healing. I made a decision to jump blindly, and I really felt God catch me. He carried me when I had no strength and felt anger and bitterness overtaking me. I picture life as a door. Every morning when the door opens—I just keep walking through them. There are still days that I wake up and I don’t want to walk through that door because it feels literally impossible. But I make the decision to and ask God to help me, and then I do—and He does.

After finding out about my diagnosis I had to give birth to my daughter and was induced at 36 weeks, because my entire body began shutting down—my kidneys and liver. It was a very traumatic birth. Four months later I was told I had postpartum Psychosis, which resulted from PTSD and anxiety from the disease as well as giving birth. I became depressed, felt disconnected from life and from to my colic baby and honestly didn’t want to live any more. I feared waking up and being paralyzed again. We also had to make a decision to get pregnant with our second child around this time, if we wanted to have more children, before I was scheduled for surgery again. Very heavy and scary decisions.

But I had this will inside me to fight, and I believe it’s because I grew up in a very broken and unstable home. I was the eldest of five siblings and I took care of them and helped raise them. So I had this strong part that was deep down inside of me from growing up that way. I lived on my own and supported myself from the time I was seventeen until I met my husband at twenty-four.

I spent my entire life, fighting for my life.

So powerful! Our difficulties breed strength. And you were able to use your strength gained from your hardship growing up. Will you share with us how you found painting through this journey?

One afternoon my sister Tiffany called and asked if I had heard of Pinterest. She suggested I could get some decorating ideas for my new house and that perhaps it would be a good distraction and help make me feel better. I’ve never really had a desire to decorate, but knew we needed some furniture. We couldn’t afford much due to paying off medical bills, and so this is how I found painting!

I read some blogs on how to paint and started painting furniture that I would go and find for our home. And I started falling in love with it! It became therapy for my body, because I had to move my arms and my legs every day just to get them to work again. And it was also good mentally, as I began bringing life, beauty and character back to forgotten, abused and mistreated vintage and antique furniture.

vintage furniture

And now I see the tie between your past and your passion for your work! We don’t realize the beauty that is happening within our lives, until it actually occurs. The pain, the suffering, the things that we may have endured in childhood or even as an adult—there is something remarkable to become of it. There is a story to be made from it!

I love that each piece of furniture has its quirks and character. Not one piece is ever the same. The blemishes and the dings, tell us what makes each piece so special on its own, which is why I enjoy leaving some of those original marks once they’ve been made beautiful again, it tells a story.

I love the heart that you put into your work and the deeper meaning of it all. Amber, Mother’s Day weekend is upon us, and I feel it’s a perfect time to talk about your role as a mother. In a recent social media post you shared, ‘I’ll be the first to tell you that my life is chaos sometimes—well because kids! But you need to stop and just rest. You need to breathe. And that’s what I’m doing right now—remembering to just be.’


The day I gave birth to my children, I signed up to be at the hand of raising someone and putting my priorities aside and my priorities became my children. Oh how I love my children—they’re so sweet and so precious. Motherhood is messy, you’re constantly cleaning, feeding someone, depleted of energy, questioning yourself. Oh man, and guilt—with a fat ‘G’! There isn’t a ‘How to be a mom handbook’ and it can be very hard!

Sometimes, in the middle of chaos, I realize that I just have to sit (or hide in the bathroom). I have to take time to ground myself. Really being there physically and emotionally for my kids is something that I don’t want to lose sight of. It’s how you love through the ups and downs. The dishes, picking up the toys and laundry can wait. When you take time to regroup, and fill up your tank, it’s a great moment to remember what it means to be a mother. Meet your children’s needs and take care of yourself!

And to wrap up our incredible talk today Amber, how has the difficulty that you went through in your life changed your perspective? When we began this interview you mentioned, ‘I can’t imagine where I would be without this experience.’

First of all, my husband and I have become closer than we ever thought possible, having faced this challenge so early in our marriage. I can’t thank him enough for his selflessness in everything he’s done for me during a time that some husbands might have left being given that kind of responsibility—a caretaker. It has changed my perspective on life and how incredibly precious it is. My experience changed my views on the way I see people and the way that I view life in general. Your life can be taken from you at any moment and so everything that you say and everything that you do—it really does matter! It has changed my perspective about my friendships and my family and my priorities. It doesn’t matter if my life looks perfect from the outside. It doesn’t matter what people think about me.

living intentional

What really matters is that I wake up every day and decide to see the world in many dimensions.

Grieving and supporting others who have gone through extremely hard times. There is a different part of life that I’ve seen. I can now live deeper.

And oh what joy and freedom there is, in intentionally living a deeper life. Thanks for sharing your story with us, Amber. You are amazing!



woman painterAmber Zakahi is a Designer, Purveyor, Curator & Finisher Of High End & Quality Vintage & Antique Furniture and Owner at The Teal Cottage. Amber lives right outside of Portland Oregon and is wife to her best friend and mama to Irish twins. Together they are finding peace and contentment in their ordinary life and believe that humor, faith and gratefulness are a wonderful recipe in this ever changing life we live. Amber grew up in a military family and has moved all over the country, lived in and traveled all over Europe which is where she began learning to appreciate furniture and its historical roots. You’ll find Amber juggling motherhood, and her passion, refinishing furniture which also doubles as therapy for her neuromuscular disease as she conquers through the daily challenges that come along with limitations, pain management and pushing herself. Amber has lived a life fighting and surviving through extreme challenges and believes strength, growth and character are built through brokenness and despair if only you choose to allow yourself to be honest, humble, vulnerable and conquer fear.

Visit Amber online: Website, Instagram, Facebook

The Teal Cottage. Gallery of work.

artisitic paint brush


vintage cabinet


gray cabinet


olive gray cabinet


skeleton key


comments ()

Powered by Facebook Comments

Comments are closed.

  1. Heather Lovelett
    May 11, 2017, 11:05 EST

    Dannielle, your story is incredibly inspiring. You are so tough, and oh my goodness – your work is AWESOME. I literally want to buy every piece you’ve created!!

    • MightyD
      May 11, 2017, 11:24 EST

      Heather, I’m so thrilled you were inspired by Amber’s story as much as I was! And yes, her talent is over the top too!!! Thanks for stopping by! xo~D

  2. Annette Dattilo
    May 11, 2017, 1:15 EST

    This is such an inspiring story and testimony. God gives us strength when don’t have it. Your family is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

    • MightyD
      May 11, 2017, 1:42 EST

      Annette! I’m so thrilled you stopped by. It’s so empowering to share our stories with one another! Happy weekend ahead. xo~D

  3. Jessica
    May 11, 2017, 5:25 EST

    Amazing story. Attitude is everything. I love the metaphor of brining the furniture back to life as Amber rehabilitated as well. The furniture is beautiful too!

    • MightyD
      May 11, 2017, 7:04 EST

      Amber is so inspiring! I agree, I absolutely love the metaphor of the furniture!! xo~D

  4. Mums
    May 11, 2017, 5:42 EST

    Amber, I so enjoyed Amber’s Story as it reminds me of a dear friend who suffered for years from the same disease. She too was an inspiration to all who knew her. Thank you for sharing and being a mirror image to encourage others! God Bless.

    • MightyD
      May 11, 2017, 7:04 EST

      Thanks for reading Amber’s story Mums! I knew it would touch your heart! xo~D

  5. Angela
    May 11, 2017, 6:02 EST

    What a powerful story.
    Being pregnant with your first child would be daunting in itself without such a challenge.
    So glad to see Amber got through it and is managing life again!
    Having something to do that is your own is really important, particularly when you are living with a disease or mental health issue.
    Thanks for sharing, it is definitely a motivator!

    • MightyD
      May 11, 2017, 7:05 EST

      Thank you for your comment Angela~ I so agree with everything you’ve shared! xo~D

  6. Kim
    May 11, 2017, 10:51 EST

    What an incredible story of perseverance and discovering strength in weakness. So inspiring! Thank you two for sharing her story!

  7. Marquette
    May 19, 2017, 11:09 EST

    This is moving and inspiring!! And I love the analogy made about her journey and her view of each piece of furniture she paints. Seeing the beauty in each piece is key!

    • MightyD
      May 20, 2017, 6:40 EST

      Every day when I hear these stories, and consider my own, I am amazed how our brokenness brings life! xo! D

  8. Johanna
    August 13, 2018, 10:22 EST

    Amber has an incredible story, indeed! I went through partial hysterectomy too, but no other complications, unless I do not have children. Anyway, Amber is a model of how not to give up in front of life’s difficulties.

    • MightyD
      August 14, 2018, 8:14 EST

      I love your last sentence Johanna! Thanks for sharing a part of your story with us too. xo!

  9. Niki at Toot's Mom i
    August 14, 2018, 7:38 EST

    Wow. That’s such an inspiring story! It takes a lot of courage to make it through all of that with a positive outlook.

    • MightyD
      August 14, 2018, 8:13 EST

      I love that you used the word ‘courage’. I so agree! What a nudge for us all! xo~

  10. Cammeo Murray
    August 14, 2018, 9:45 EST

    Oh my gosh I just watched a video about a woman who got this same disease while pregnant! I’d never heard of this before and what an amazing journey to recovery you’ve had ❤️

  11. Brittany
    August 14, 2018, 10:35 EST

    Wow, what an inspiring story! It’s incredible what how powerful the mind is

  12. Kelsey
    August 15, 2018, 8:13 EST

    Such an amazing story!! xo